Role recognition
Notice when a familiar role takes over before you have checked what you want.
What if being easy to love has made it harder to be yourself?
The strong one. The helpful one. The one who understands. You learned which version of you kept love close, made the room easier or kept trouble away. Somewhere along the way, the role became so familiar that you stopped asking whether you could put it down.
That’s Not Me is a guided sensual seven-day journey by Camilla Wellton into the roles, inherited beliefs and quiet rules that shape who you allow yourself to be.
Through reading, my recorded guidance, writing and body mapping, you’ll explore what got rewarded, what became compulsory, and what happens just before you edit yourself again. You’ll make room for the anger, tenderness, preferences and desires that being “good” may have pushed aside.
Your kindness can stay. So can your strength. The question is whether they can become choices again.
For the moment when being admired for how well you cope is no longer enough. You want your life to feel like yours.
Four capacities you’ll practise
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Inherited-belief discernment
Question the rules you absorbed about goodness, belonging and what you are allowed to need.
Self-definition
Find language for yourself beyond what other people praise or expect.
Approval-pattern awareness
Recognise when being liked starts shaping your answer.
Authentic choice
Practise a response that includes your actual preference.
What’s inside
Eight chapters. Seven stages to explore at your own pace. The final chapter is an integration imaginal journey, giving you space to bring the experience together.
In the recordings, I guide you through a deliberate pace, pauses and sequence designed to help your nervous system settle. My voice and the music invite you to notice bodily responses alongside your thoughts and feelings. You can also choose separate background music on the course platform to carry the atmosphere into your reading and reflection.
Each of the seven stages includes:
- An opening guided exercise with my voice and music composed especially for the I AWAKE universe.
- The day’s chapter to read and explore.
- Three writing prompts, with space for your responses.
- A body map as the fourth prompt, to notice and record what you feel.
- A closing guided exercise with my voice and the original music.
You also receive The Circle, the guided imaginal journey for integration, and a longer guided practice to return to whenever you want time with yourself.
A substantial book, made to spend time with. The printed edition has 320 pages and pairs premium, thick cream paper with full-colour illustrations and easy-to-read 15-point type. There is ample space to write, explore and doodle in the margins. Room to make this book your own.
If I were you, I’d want a sample first.
Enter your email to receive access to the first 50 pages for free in your digital library. We’ll email you a link to sign in and read your sample on the website.
Hear what it feels like to be guided.
Listen as I guide you for about ten minutes, accompanied by music composed especially for this universe. Let my voice give you a sense of the pace, the atmosphere and what it’s like to take time for yourself.
Audio sample from The Sensual Hero’s Journey™
Your printed book, guidance and music
Your printed book includes access to my recorded guidance, the original music and the course material. Immediately after checkout, you’ll receive an email with your access link and login details for the course platform. You can begin listening while your book is on its way.
