You enjoyed it, so why are you already reaching for something else?
Something felt good but didn’t quite reach you
The dinner was good. So was the attention. You finally got the thing you’d wanted. Yet the satisfaction seems to end before the moment does.
You know how to find pleasure. What’s less clear is why some of it leaves you more available to your life, while some leaves you looking for the next thing.
The same pleasure can be doing different jobs
Being desired can bring enjoyment. It can also briefly settle a fear that you’re no longer desirable. Buying something beautiful can delight you, or give a difficult day an ending you can bear.
Relief and excitement have their place. But if the pleasure is being asked to resolve something it can only briefly interrupt, the need may return as soon as the moment ends.
To understand that return, it helps to look at how you’re participating in the pleasure itself.
You can arrange a beautiful experience and keep yourself outside it
You notice whether everyone else is enjoying the meal before you taste your own. You register how you look in the clothes before how they feel. You sense what your lover wants before noticing what you want next.
Or you keep pleasure safely private because sharing it would reveal a desire you’d rather nobody knew could be disappointed.
The experience may be enjoyable and still contain work: being impressive, being easy, staying in control. What would change if you could stop doing some of that work without losing the pleasure?
Pleasure becomes more personal when you can choose inside it
You can notice what feels good, adjust what doesn’t, say what you want and recognise when you’ve had enough. Now the experience tells you more than whether you managed to enjoy it. It tells you something about how you want to live.
Pleasure is My Medicine follows sensation into meaning, the obligations pleasure can carry and the loops that keep you reaching. Through seven days of reading, writing, body maps and guided audio, you develop a repeatable practice around pleasure that actually reaches you.
The book returns to what happens afterwards: whether a good moment changes the way you enter the next one. That’s the difference between pleasure as an occasional escape from your life and pleasure with a place in how you live it.
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This isn’t a book
I AWAKE makes books you don’t only read.
Pleasure is My Medicine is a seven-day experience that brings the work close to ordinary life. You read. You write. You notice. You map sensation. You listen. Then you go back into your actual day and watch what happens when the old identity is asked to perform again.
The point is not speed. The point is enough contact that insight can reach the next real moment.
What you may begin to notice
✨ What you’re asking a pleasure to give you
✨ The work you keep doing inside an enjoyable moment
✨ How relief, excitement and nourishment differ in your experience
✨ What changes after a pleasure you’ve actually been present to receive
You don’t need another improve-yourself project darling.
You need a way to hear the self you’ve always been who’s already here.
I’ve got you! And if you need extra support, this is a book you can talk with!
A structure that holds your most tender parts gently
Each day follows a deliberate rhythm:
✨ Listen and arrive in your body.
✨ Read and recognize the pattern.
✨ Write and separate what you learned from what feels true.
✨ Map where it lives in your body.
✨ Practise responding from a more honest place.
The repetition matters. You don’t just understand the role you’ve been playing. You begin to notice when it appears, what it’s protecting and what might become possible without it.
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Questions
and answers
It goes further than suggestions. The book explores how you receive pleasure, what it means, the obligations it can carry and what it leaves behind. The practice develops around an experience that matters to you rather than a checklist of things you should enjoy.
No. Relief, stimulation and nourishment can serve different needs. The useful distinction is whether an experience gives you what you’re seeking, or keeps being asked to answer a need it never quite reaches.
It describes pleasure that supports your participation in life, rather than only a passing peak. It’s a metaphor, not a medical treatment claim. The book is a reflective educational experience.
No. Sensuality is your capacity to notice, feel, receive and respond through your body.
The journey explores presence, desire, boundaries, emotion and honest choice.
Sexuality may be part of that wider territory, but it isn’t the focus here.
No. You won’t be facing pages of empty space and wondering what to write.
The book gives you a structured progression, research informed teachings, guided audio, specific prompts, body maps and practices to carry into ordinary life.
No.
You can move through one stage each day, pause when something needs more time or return after a break. There’s no falling behind and no need to start over.
You decide darling! This is not school, nor a task.
This is quality Me-time.
No. Every journey is designed to stand on its own.
Start with Pleasure is My Medicine if its central question feels closest to what you’re living now.
Scan the QR code at the back of your book and follow the instructions to access the accompanying online material.
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Aurora is your personal practice partner in the I AWAKE universe. She knows the material inside the book and helps you explore the questions it brings up.
She’s currently available only by invitation. Join her waiting list to receive an invitation when access connected to Pleasure is My Medicine opens again.
What's
inside
✨ Full-color, soft matte cover
✨331 pages with full color illustrations, 8 chapters with large margins that gives you plenty of space to journal, doodle, and reflect
✨Large format, 8″x10″, for comfortable writing experience
✨ 2 audio-guided sessions per dayaccessed via QR code in the book hosted on a course platform
✨ 1audio-guided imaginal journey deep into your mind to meet an aspect of yourself accessed via QR code in the book hosted on a course platform
Download the first chapter for free!
You shouldn’t have to translate yourself to feel seen
This book doesn’t quietly assume one gender, one attachment pattern, one kind of relationship or one “right” way to live.
Whether you move closer, pull away, over-give, adapt or protect your independence, there’s room to recognize yourself here.
Different ways of loving, relating and living aren’t added as an afterthought. They’re woven into the language, reflections and practices, so you can explore your inner life without being forced into somebody else’s story.
This experience is for You if…
✨ You have enjoyable experiences but often leave them reaching for something else
✨ You arrange pleasure beautifully while monitoring how everyone else feels
✨ You keep desire private or manageable so nobody can see how much something matters
✨ You want pleasure to become part of how you live, not only a break from the way you’re living
Each of the seven days include
✨ 1 guided audio practice before you start reading to ground you in your body
✨ 1 daily theme to focus your attention and help you name the unspoken
✨ 3 prompts that match the daily theme with ample writing space within the book
✨ 1 body map for you to track your sensations in relation to the daily theme
✨ 1 guided audio practice to close the day with awareness and self compassion
The journey also includes an audio guided imaginal practice to be done after the 7 days for deeper integration as well as one longer guided audio practice you can experience anytime you need a gentle dose of sensual nervous system regulation.
You can talk with this book
Together with your personal practice partner, Aurora, you can talk with this book.
Aurora is part of the I AWAKE universe.
She knows the material inside the book intimately and the questions it may give rise to.
Her role is to support you as you turn what you read into actions that change your life.
You can to talk to her about a passage you’ve underlined in your book, a pattern you’ve started to notice or let her help you turn insights into lived change.
She won’t tell you who to be.
She’ll help you stay close to what the book has opened up for you.
She’ll help you metabolise what you learn and practice it.
Aurora is currently available only by invitation.
You’ll receive an invitation when access connected to Pleasure is My Medicine opens again.
What would you like the good things in your life to reach?
You may not need a more impressive experience. You may need to understand what happens between having access to pleasure and actually being fed by it.
Pleasure is My Medicine makes that difference something you can explore in your own life.
If you buy this experience directly from the author, you’ll get immediate access to your audio practices and the physical book signed & dedicated to you ❤️
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You know how to find good things. Explore what lets those good things become part of your life after the moment ends.
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