You want it all. Will you be there to enjoy it?
The life looks good. How does it feel from inside?
The home. The relationship. The work people respect. The money that gives you options.
Perhaps you are still reaching for them. Perhaps some are already yours, and you have discovered that getting the thing did not automatically give you the feeling.
I Want It All follows the desire beneath the picture: the spaciousness, intimacy, freedom, beauty or authorship you want to experience. Then it asks where that experience can begin to live.
What is the promise inside your want?
Money may mean choice. Love may mean being met. Visibility may mean having a voice you no longer keep explaining away.
Naming that promise gives you something more precise to create from.
The book introduces Sensorial Scenecraft: small inner scenes that bring a desired state close enough to notice through your senses. You shape and adjust the scene, explore what interferes with it, and connect it to one real movement.
Naming the fee. Keeping the free hour free. Saying what you want before guessing the acceptable answer.
Who is watching inside the dream?
The person who underestimated you? The family you want to make proud? An audience you keep hoping will finally say “enough”?
Your desire may contain something deeply yours alongside an old wish to prove. You can become curious about both.
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A book you experience
Across seven stages, you find the state beneath the symbol, give it a usable scene, notice the approval inside it, and bring it to the moment before an old response repeats. Reading, writing, body maps and my recorded guidance support the practice of receiving more without losing contact with yourself.
What you may begin to notice
What you hope will change inside you when you reach a goal.
Whose reaction appears in the future you imagine.
A scene specific enough to connect with an ordinary action.
The impulse to shrink, rush or perform when more arrives.
A repeated place in your life where the desired state can take shape.
Four capacities you’ll practise
These are the five skills this journey focuses on. Follow each link to explore its place in the I AWAKE capacity system.
Desire decoding
Identify the experience or state you hope a desired outcome will bring.
Desire & erotic intelligenceExpansion tolerance
Explore how to meet more possibility while staying attentive to your limits and needs.
Capacity & expansionVisibility capacity
Practise being seen without automatically editing yourself for approval.
Visibility & voiceReceiving success
Notice what happens when something wanted arrives, and make room to receive it.
Capacity & expansionSustainable ambition
Connect what you are pursuing with a way of living you can participate in.
Purpose & possibility
A structure that gives you room
Each stage gives you a way in, space to explore, and a way to close. Begin with the opening guided recording, where my voice and music I composed especially for the I AWAKE universe help you notice your body’s responses alongside thoughts and feelings. Read the day’s chapter. Explore three writing prompts and a body map as the fourth prompt, then return to the closing guided recording.
The rhythm becomes familiar as the questions deepen. Take one stage a day, stay longer with a chapter, or pause and return when you have room. You decide the pace, darling.
Listen to how it feels when I guide you.
Hear what it feels like to be guided.
Questions
and answers
The practice uses imagination to clarify a desired experience and rehearse a response. It does not promise that imagining an outcome will make the outside world deliver it. Real circumstances and practical action remain part of creation.
Your ambitions have a place here. The journey asks what they mean to you, whose expectations they carry, and how the life you are building can include your actual needs and pleasures.
You can begin with a feeling, an irritation, a longing or the sense that something is missing. The first stage helps you explore the state beneath the image of what you think you should want.
No. The seven stages give the journey its sequence. You can take a stage each day, give a chapter more time, or pause and return. There is no deadline.
Give yourself time for my recorded guidance, reading, writing and body map. The books suggest that a couple of hours per stage can work well if you have that space. You can also spread a stage across more than one sitting.
It is a guided experience with chapters to read, specific writing prompts, body maps, my recorded guidance and music composed especially for the I AWAKE universe. You have a structure to follow, with room for your own responses.
Sensuality here includes your capacity to notice, feel, receive and respond through your body. Sexuality can belong to that experience, alongside touch, pleasure, emotion, presence and ordinary life.
You can begin with the journey whose question feels closest to your life. Each book offers its own sequence. The wider series gives you other places to explore when you want them.
This is an educational and reflective experience. It can sit alongside other forms of support, but it does not diagnose, treat or replace therapy or medical care. You can pause a practice whenever you need to.
Choose print and your physical book will be sent to you. Choose digital and your book will be available in your digital library immediately after checkout. You can read it directly in your library. With either edition, you’ll receive an email immediately after checkout with your access link and login details for the course platform, where my recorded guidance, the accompanying music and your course material are available.
What’s inside
Eight chapters. Seven stages to explore at your own pace. The final chapter is an integration imaginal journey, giving you space to bring the experience together.
Each of the seven stages includes:
- An opening guided recording with my voice and music I composed especially for the I AWAKE universe.
- The day’s chapter to read and explore.
- Three writing prompts, with space for your responses.
- A body map as the fourth prompt, to notice and record what you feel.
- A closing guided recording.
The pace, pauses and sequence of the guidance are deliberately chosen to help your nervous system settle. They give you time to notice your body’s responses alongside your thoughts and feelings before continuing with the reading and your own reflections. On the course platform, you can also choose to play the separate background music while you read and answer the questions.
You also receive The Circle, the guided imaginal journey for integration, and a longer guided practice to return to whenever you want time with yourself.
A substantial book, made to spend time with. The printed edition pairs premium, thick cream pages with full-colour illustrations and easy-to-read 15-point type. There is ample space to write, explore and doodle in the margins. Room to make this book your own.
If I were you, I’d want a sample first.
Enter your email to receive access to the first 50 pages for free in your digital library. We’ll email you a link to sign in and read your sample on the website.
Room for your experience
You shouldn’t have to translate yourself to feel seen.
There is room here for different genders, relationships and ways of moving through life. Whether you tend to reach, withdraw, over-give, stay guarded or become the one who handles everything, you can begin with your own experience.
This experience is for you if…
- You want more from life and want to understand what that “more” actually means to you.
- You have achieved things that did not feel the way you expected.
- You want to bring imagination and desire into choices you can make now.
Each of the seven stages includes
- An opening guided recording with my voice and music I composed especially for the I AWAKE universe.
- A chapter with a specific theme to explore.
- Three writing prompts to bring the material into your own experience.
- A body map as the fourth prompt, to notice and record physical responses.
- A closing guided recording to return to the body and meet what has come up with care.
After the seven stages, continue with The Circle, a guided imaginal journey for integration. A longer guided practice is also included for you to return to.
Continuing with Aurora
Would you like company as you continue?
Aurora is the I AWAKE practice partner, designed to help you explore the book’s questions and bring the practices into daily life. She is currently available by invitation. Join the waiting list for information about access connected to your journey.
Aurora access is separate from the book, guidance and music access described here.
Give the life you want somewhere to begin.
One scene you can enter. One choice you can make. One place where more of you gets to stay.
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Printed book + guidance and music
Your printed book includes access to my recorded guidance, the accompanying music and course material. Immediately after checkout, you’ll receive an email with your access link and login details for the course platform, where you’ll find my recorded guidance and the music that accompanies it. You can listen to my guidance and the music while your book is on its way.
Digital book + guidance and music
Your digital book will be available in your digital library immediately after checkout. You’ll read it in the library. You’ll also receive an email immediately after checkout with your access link and login details for the course platform, where you’ll find my recorded guidance, the accompanying music and course material.
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